September 11, 2001. I remember it well. Maybe you do too.
I had the television on while I got ready for work, so when that second plane hit the second tower, I watched it through a television screen. Somehow, my heart knew that the safety I’d always obliviously enjoyed inside the boundary lines we call the United States of America was crumbling along with that tower.
My husband and I were expecting our first child in a few months, so we were already feeling a bit uneasy as we prepared to journey the uncharted waters of parenthood. My security was shaken both inside and out.
A few weeks later, that uneasiness became even more pronounced when a close friend’s mother was brutally murdered. It shook me deeply. Suddenly I found myself wondering if I would ever again know peace of any kind. I was afraid.
I wonder if that’s how David felt when he wrote Psalm 56.
Running from King Saul, whose raging jealousy wanted him dead, David ran to the land of the Philistines. You know, the place Goliath was from. Yep, you read that right. David sought refuge in the land of his enemy. He wasn’t kidding about being hotly pursued on all sides.
So David did what he did best. He turned to God Himself. The only One who was able to do anything about any of it anyway.
“Be merciful to me, O God . . . ” (v. 1).
And he recounted his situation to the One who already knew.
“All day long they press their attack” (v. 1).
“My slanderers pursue me all day long . . . ” (v. 2).
“. . . they are always plotting to harm me” (v. 5).
“They conspire, they lurk, they watch my steps, eager to take my life” (v. 6).
Knowing God heard every cry and saw every tear, David left each one of them in God’s almighty hand. He made an active choice to not just trust. David chose to not be afraid!
Because it’s one thing to say you trust God, but it’s completely another to not be afraid.
I had much to fear that fall of September, 2001. We all did. Our world was shaken. But God saw it all. And He remained unshaken, just as He always is. Because He is God. Almighty and Forever. That’s how David was able to leave all his fear and worry in the palm of the one Almighty God.
Have you left your own fear and worry in His hand too or are you still trying to hold on to it? Take some time today to let it go and actively trust the only One who can take it.