September 21: Open Letters – Dear Depression

Read Habakkuk 3:16-19

(It would be beneficial to read the entire book to get the full understanding of depression and the deliverance we experience through Christ)

Dear Depression,

It is safe to say that you and I have an on-again off-again relationship. When you come back into my life, you hit me like a ton of bricks. It’s like a tug of war in my head; you’re on one side and Truth from God’s Word is on the other side…pulling, back and forth, while I sit in the middle as the dust from the struggle fills my mind, and I wait for clarity.

You are a part of my story, my history; however, when you come for a visit, I am not me. I forget who I am and whose I am.

We met when I was a young child, and I trained myself to depend on you through tough times. Yet, here I am, almost 30 years old, a believer and follower of Christ and someone who walks in the Truth that His Word is authoritative. I believe He IS good but, when you are here, you come when life hits, and it’s hard to get out of the hole that is you.


That authoritative Truth, the words that are proclaimed by a powerful God, are mine too; verses that were a result of hard lessons learned alongside you and Him.

And so… when you come to visit, I will repeat them more to myself. Every time I need to step out of the hole or get up from between the tug of war, I will walk to His side and depend on His clarity. You may have won this battle before, but the war has already been won, and I am no longer enslaved to the words that come along with your presence.

So I will say…

“There is no one holy like the Lord, Indeed, there is no one besides You.  Nor is there any rock like our God” 1 Samual 2:2

“Blessed be the Lord, Because He has heard the voice of my supplication. The Lord is my strength and my shield; My heart trusts in Him, and I am helped. Therefore my heart exults, and with my song I shall thank Him.” Pslam 28:6-7

“The steadfast of mind You will  keep in perfect peace, Because he trusts in You” Isaiah 26:3

You may come for a visit, you may come to fill the space around me with lies, but my God is good and He is my rock.

Kelly Lawson

One thought on “September 21: Open Letters – Dear Depression

  1. Kelly, thank you so much for words I so needed to hear exactly at this time. God is so faithful that He provides me with everything I need and your encouraging words and accompanying verses from His Holy Word are just small examples. I get so frustrated that I “battle” depression. I fight it with all I have because I hate what it does to me and my life. I so appreciate your perspective. Thank you for sharing from your beautiful heart. ❤️

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