“For God’s glory.”
Three words we say and sing that make us feel all warm inside, until we realize the weight of them.
It’s easy to live for God’s glory when life is sweet, but when grief lands on you like a house, you start to wonder… ‘God, where are you? I know you can do anything you want…is this it?’
And it’s there that the wrestling match begins.
The ‘letting go’ in grief may feel like you’re giving up, but what if it’s really gaining something lasting and beautiful like joy, hope, patience, and faith?
It may sound like a bunch of messy questions: ‘Why can’t I just trust God with this pain? I thought I was stronger than this?’, ‘I’ve been living for You, and this is what You give me in return?’ and ‘I was considering life with You, Jesus, but if this is what You’re offering, count me out.’
Jesus is the master of asking the best questions. When some of His followers couldn’t stomach His teaching, He asked them if they were going to abandon Him and Peter answered:
“To whom shall we go? You have the words of eternal life.” – John 6:68
I can think of a lot of other places to go, can’t you? You may have traveled there yourself. Places like: pity, isolation, substance abuse, buying things, denial, keeping busy. I bet it’s made your grief all better, hasn’t it? You’re all healed up and living an amazing life that honors God?
Humbly, I suggest that being joyful in hope, patient in affliction, and faithful in prayer sounds a lot like action, not just lying under a house doing nothing.
Hear me loud. There’s no shame in lying under a house of grief and there’s no shame for how it landed there. Jesus isn’t condemning you. He cares for you.
He’s waiting for you to trust Him.
Imagine Him listening to your laments and actually having the power to do something about them. What if you decide there is nowhere else to go and invite Him into your grief? Even that would give Him glory.
What if you commit to reading the Psalms and asking the Spirit to bring you comfort through His words?
What if you speak honestly about your pain with someone you know will direct you toward faith?
What if you believe Jesus is under the house with you, fighting for every breath with you, and that He is the source for everything you need to heal?
I can’t lie.
I hate grief.
And I can’t lie.
The closeness I’ve gained with Jesus through suffering has been a gift.
He’s taught me how to trust Him time and time again.
And with each tiny act of faith, He has responded with His faithfulness and lifted the weight off my chest, one piece of the ‘house’ at a time.
And I’ve felt a little lighter, and hopefully, given Him the glory.